When your gut tells you it's going to be a shit-ty day, you better believe it. I think he really wants me out so he's using the passive-aggressive move of making me so uncomfortable and feel so unwanted that I will feel compelled to leave. Doing that will save him the nasty business of telling me for himself. I'm very amazed that I did not just breakdown right there and then. Perhaps I'm not as emotional as I thought I was. Then again, I wasn't as affected by his words or the situation mainly because his accusations of me were false. He said he was trying to be fair and that his comments (criticism more like it) were realistic and yet they were aimed to hurt me emotionally and to tear me to pieces. That's exactly how I felt at the end of it. Like I said, I'm surprised I did not crumble but I picked myself up and continued with the day and what a long day it was. Maybe I am stronger than I give myself credit for.
We all have our low moments, some more than others. Today was just another one of those moments for me. I am exhausted but I am not defeated. After today, it's nice to know that I have such awesome colleagues who are there for me when I really need them. Them I will miss, most definitely.
I have another smashingly awesome song for you. Not too sure how old it is, but I chanced upon this when browsing through my iTunes for songs for this year's Earth Day video. Oh yea, I am a sell-out. I succumbed to media temptation and have in my possession an iTouch. How do you spell sell-out? P-A-R-V-E-E-N!
Shedding tears for affairs
Are a funny little thing
I can tell you this for nothing
Affairs don't win
Can you handle one more dirty secret
one dirty night
Is it true what they say
Will it make us go blind
You had to drive
Look me in the eye
Whisper don't cry
I'll take an interest in Illustration
It should be a laugh
Your words are with me still
They whisper in the grass
Shedding tears for affairs
Are a stupid little thing
I can tell you this for nothing
You won't win
You had to drive
(I didn't want to)
Look me in the eye
(I found it hard to)
Whisper don't cry
(I had to whisper don't cry)
So I cried
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