It's Times Like These

The rehearsals are draining!!! I'm so exhausted when I come home but I can't seem to fall asleep without tossing and turning in bed for what seems like ages. It'll be over soon; performance is tomorrow and Friday. I didn't tell my form class that I'm performing so they'll be in for a surprise tomorrow. I only get to see them 1 out of the 5 days this week and I'm glad that there's no exam but just AMODES to fret over. I had full day rehearsals on Monday and Wednesday and had to skip class. It's PSLE Oral on Thursday and Friday so the boys don't have to be in school. I could only see them on Tuesday but because of the assembly programme, 3 of my 6 periods were taken away. Of the 3, 2 were used for a test. I wasn't in the mood to do much with them anyway. And we wonder why the boys always seem to be in a holiday mood.

I bought the berry version of Brands Essence of Chicken to keep my energy up tomorrow. I'm literally dragging myself around and I'm in the foulest of moods. I feel like such a sloth. Thing is, a part of me will miss meeting up for rehearsals twice a week. I will miss waving hysterically at my son from afar and showing him off to anyone nearby, that's for sure. But I'm sure the boys will feel it more. They have really bonded with one another eventhough they are from different levels / classes. Oh well, we move on.

Speaking of moving on, he had to sms me today and enquire if we were going to meet on my birthday. That sms took me by surprise because I thought it was decided that we would not be able to meet and I was coming to terms with that. But how he phrased his question as "do you want" and not "can you meet" made me literally sit down and weigh the pros and cons. I decided that albeit the possibility of the meet-up being very awkward, I should still meet him else there'll forever be the lingering "what if" series of questions. Plus, I do miss him terribly. I just don't want to cry :(

p.s. my shuffle play HAD to play Everlong...