How to Tell If Your Cat Is Plotting to Kill You

I love this link! Cats are awesome and this proves it.

Expectations. Screw You.

He ruined my night for me. All I wanted was a simple dinner but he had to be a pain in the ass. Couldn't he just put his baggage aside just for one night? He knows how important this night is for me and yet he had to make it all about him. Not just that, he had to be pissy and in the most foul mood I've ever seen him in. ARGH!!

And he had the cheek to ask me if I thought that the night was a disaster! I wanted to push him onto the train tracks. I'm so mad at him.

My Birthday Gifts from My Colleagues

This is from Joseph. He made the card on the spot by stealing my FB profile pic. I love the card! It's absolutely beautiful! The candy, he ran to the shops near the school to get it and he ran back to school to pass it to me. So sweet, right?? Okay... okay... I may have exaggerated on the running bit BUT he was all sweaty and out of breath when he passed me the stuff ;)

This is from Jacinta. Can you believe that she did it on the morning itself? She is so bloody talented! And... *blush*... she said the 3 words that I've always wanted her to say to me... "You complete me"... *blush* She is such an awesome person and I really look up to her. I'll miss her the most in the school :(

Now these are from Jasper. I joked that the gifts were perfect for me as he knows me so well. The masquerade mask represents the proud side of me and the Dead Fred pen holder represents the violent side to me (you've to stick your pen into the hole which is actually where his heart is). He too is another person I'll miss. He is such a warm, understanding and positive person. He always knows what to say to make me feel better.

And this beauty is from Saras. I love her. She is one of my closest friends. She surprised me with this bouquet the moment I walked into the staffroom. Ain't it gorgeous?

Such a great day today :)

I Always Cry Before My Birthday

I was watching TV in the living room. Jeeshan enters and switches the channel. I tell him that I was watching the TV and there was no response from him. I repeat my statement and he raises his voice... Go inside and watch then... I say out loud, "WOW." I walk to Mummy and tell her what happened. She doesn't do / say anything but continues to cook. So I go to Daddy to tell him. Daddy comes out from the room and Mummy only then enters the living room to ask Jeeshan why he did what he did. And that's when a shouting match occurs.

Jeeshan claims that because I have a TV point in my room, I should watch television in my room and because he does not have a TV point, he can watch it outside. I state my point that that's not my issue. I ask why he could not just say that he wanted to watch the TV but chose to rudely switch the channel. Then he says that I am the rude one and that I need disciplining as all this while I've been ignoring him.

I repeat my previous statement. Then somewhere in between he says that he paid for the TV, so it's his so he can watch it and he's banned me from it. I mumble something about me paying the bills for the cable. Then, I say that I marvel at how he treats his family and he says that this only applies to me, and not to anyone else in the family, whilst pointing a shaking finger at me. Could be anger, could be the smoking. Who knows.

Then Mummy bursts into tears.

Long story short. I did not want a scene. I just wanted justice. He obviously was in the wrong. Mummy heard and saw what happened but she just let it be. I don't understand why she couldn't just settle the issue at that very moment. Why let it be? I'm not asking her to take sides (even though I'm obviously the victim here) but letting that matter slide means she's condoning his action.

6 hours later and no apology from him. Not that I want one, or that I am expecting one but if I were to make a blunder, I'm pretty sure there'll be hell to pay and apologies to make. But why does he seem to get away with his actions, with no consequences to bear.

If the relationship matters to me, I would speak to him and apologise because that's all he wants from me. But why would I want to, especially after this? He had 2 choices... one, to ask if he could watch tv or two, to change the channel. He chose the latter. We all have choices and we are defined by our choices in life. How come I seem to be paying the price (I seem to be getting lectured and told to be the bigger person) for the choices he makes?

Sigh.

Moving On

I finally applied. It took great courage, considering I'm such a coward. Now I have to wait till November before I get the results. I don't really care where I go, just as long as I'm out of here (there).

Next step is to apply for admission to do my Degree when registration opens on the 18th.

I'm really glad I'm getting all of this done. I've been pushing it back for far too long.

Amanda's BBQ

What completes a long weekend? Why, a BBQ, of course!

Amanda opened her pits (heh) to her friends and colleagues and I had a pretty decent time. I brought salad but it was not a hit. Who knew? The food was heavy. As in huge portions were dropped onto my plate so I couldn't enjoy eating as much as I would have liked. But it was more the company that made the night lovely.

It was also the first time that I was introduced to Amanda's guy, Steve. Nice bloke, but much too hands on, if you get what I mean.

Ah, I'm so glad it's a day off tomorrow. I can sleep in.

High and Dry

It's getting harder and harder to find time for myself these days. Any free time that I do have, I spend it listening to songs or watching the music videos to those songs. It's a bit sad, really.

I used to have numerous hobbies and I could spend hours lost in them. Now, I barely have the energy nor the interest to do any of them.

Reading, gives me a headache now and I get very agitated sitting still for too long. I've a couple of books on hold, loaned by some of my friends. Gah. Plus, the books that I do own, many are un-read. I loathe what I have become.

Even watching movies, it takes me a really long time to decide on what I feel like watching. Midway through the movie, I lose interest and I feel like watching a completely different genre altogether.

Yea. I have severe attention span issues. Possibly something I caught from the boys. Heh. I'm glad the long weekend is here. I can finally have some me-time!

Hoorah for the Long Weekend

It really could not have come at a better time. I got home early from school on Thursday (Around 3-ish) and I had lunch while watching a bunch of episodes of Scrubs. At around 5, I decided to nap. When I woke up from my nap, it was already 8! Yea. I know. I got out of bed, took a piss and fed Athena and I went back to bed. I woke up the next morning and got ready for school.

Like totally, the long weekend could not have come at a better time. I've never felt so burnt out before.