Practice What You Preach

No one can make you feel inferior without your consent. I tell everyone that and yet I allow it to happen to myself. When I first read the news, I admit I was disappointed and near the brink of being devastated. But I let the feeling go; burying it with Season 1 of How I Met Your Mother and a number of chicken wings and a bottle of Pepsi. I had let it go. But one phone call was all it needed to resurface the frustration and disappointment.

Yes, valid point. If they appreciated me, they would have dangled that notion or even given that carrot to me. I've done my share and I've been doing pretty darn well but here I am, still waiting for my carrot while everyone else has their firsts and some even seconds.

But no I am not jealous nor angry. What I feel has nothing to do with you. I am happy for you but what they did not do for me, has made me even more jaded than before.

Fuck the system; I'm getting out of there.

This calls for a new theme song.

Incubus - Drive

Sometimes I feel the fear of uncertainty stinging clear

And I cant help but ask myself how much

I'll let the fear take the wheel and steer

It's driven me before, it seems to have a vague

Haunting mass appeal

Lately I'm beginning to find that I should be the one behind the wheel

Whatever tomorrow brings, I'll be there

With open arms and open eyes yeah

Whatever tomorrow brings, I'll be there, I'll be there

So if I decide to waiver my chance to be one of the hive

Will I choose water over wine and hold my own and drive, oh oh

It's driven me before, it seems to be the way

That everyone else get around

Lately, I'm beginning to find that when I drive myself, my light is found

Whatever tomorrow brings, I'll be there

With open arms and open eyes yeah

Whatever tomorrow brings, I'll be there, I'll be there

Would you choose water over wine

Hold the wheel and drive

Whatever tomorrow brings, I'll be there

With open arms and open eyes yeah

Whatever tomorrow brings, I'll be there, I'll be there